MEOW!!!

LOOKIT HAPPY FUN TIME VIDEO!!!

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 04:56:38 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QrMNKUGzvgs

LOOKING TO BUY A ROOM FOR MFF

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 03:18:12 GMT

I really want a room in the main hotel at MFF, but only have one in the backup. Do you know anyone that's willing to trade their room for the room I have in the back-up hotel? There's shuttle service between the hotels, and you can drive too. I just want to avoid it cause we got a buncha fursuiters and an artist with a buncha art supplies in our room, and it would make a big difference to us....

I'll paypal you $50 just to trade... You'd be doing me a huge favor, AND profiting from it! :)

A Jaggers Pawtucket status update. And a thanks.

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 01:37:19 GMT

Firstly, a completely unrelated topic. I've noticed that I've gotten like 12 new watchers in the past week. Not very much for an artist's standards, but very atypical for me to get watchers when I haven't posted something or just been to a con. Just wondering if there's any method to this madness. Someone link me up from somewhere or what?

Anyhow, I wanna thank you all who payed attention to me last night in my time of need... I wasn't able to respond you comments, but I read them all at some point, and it made me feel less alone.

What made last night so bad was the day had gone so well. I had all my work done by 4 PM, and was basically just watching out for the 30 people on our team, as well as our sister team's. I was planning to sleep a little. Maybe even have a decent Sunday. Instead, overnight three patients, two of them my own, decided to crash, all AT THE SAME TIME. That all made for a hell of a stressful night, a couple times I wanted to cry. Ultimately 2 of them had to go to the ICU, and one of them, thankfully, stabilized.

ICU transfers are terrible cause not only is it a ton of work, but you end up wondering if you did something wrong, if you somehow failed them and their family... and that's not a fun feeling.

Fortunately, in retrospect, I think I managed alright. Everyone told me that I did the right thing for all of them. Its just crazy how fragile these cancer patients can be. They come in with something as simple as what looks like the flu, and you throw on hard-core antibiotics just to be safe. And yet they decide to get pneumonia anyway. And you throw on all the antibiotics known to man, and they just keep getting worse and worse, and there's nothing you can do but eventually stick a tube down their throat, or send them to hospice. I've literally had 4 patients in the past week like that. Its probably cause they're so immune compromised. But damn, its insane.

Anyway. This was the end of what I expect to be the worst month I'll have this year. It was horrible, but I guess I learned that I can handle the worst...

Tomorrow I start a month of general medicine. This could possibly be my 2nd worst of the year. But there's no way it can be has bad as the oncology service! So I'm feeling reasonably optimistic.

Then there's light at end of tunnel. My next day off isn't til Halloween, but 4 weeks from now I'm done with internal medicine FOREVER, and I have 2 weeks vacation and I get to go to MFF, and go back home to Texas for a week!

The rest of the year still has hells in store for me, like ICU and surgery. But I expect to suffer less with those. December and January will be relatively easy months. And April I have another two weeks off to go to FCN!

I know its SO FURRY of me that the things I look forward to the most is furry cons... but hey, its the one thing I got that lets me get truely lets me get away from it all :)

Alrighty, back to the grind tomorrow.

"Fursuit Acting" and what it means and all that?

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 02:14:53 GMT

Something I've been pondering about on and off is this idea of fursuit "acting"...

like... I dunno... this whole idea of effectively BEING the character that you happen to be wearing... adopting their personality and all that, even when its so different from what you are like in human form.

I have alot of respect for fursuiters who are actually really good at that. Cause honestly, I don't think I'd be very good.

Jaggers is supposed to BE me already, with the same personality as me. Just more carefree from real world stresses I guess. (what I WISH I could be on a regular basis)

So when I go out in suit I pretty much just act like how I feel like acting... cept with the knowledge that I can pretty much get away with anything. So I kinda just go out there, try to enjoy myself, and try to get people to pay attention to me. I rather enjoy being paid attentioned to... and then later finding photos and videos of myself :)

And when I do things like play the fursuit games, I just go out there and play. Play with the intention to have fun, and with the intention to WIN.

But still, I'm just doing my thing I guess. Me being me. Not much thought to it. I dunno if I could really do the acting thing...

I wonder how different it feels for the people that go out and actively "act"... is it something I should try to do? Maybe I should try to get a non-Jaggers fursuit and see how I'd do...

Da Freakin Prairie

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 02:37:02 GMT

Furry - Why its so good to be popular!

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 03:46:39 GMT

If you haven't figgured it out already, it is ESSENTIAL to be "POPUFUR" in the furry fandom in order to be happy.

Here are some reasons why you need to be popular:

1) people will know who you are, even though you have no idea who they are
2) you will get lots of fanart of yourself
3) non-popular people will obsess about trying to be friends with you
4) people who actually are popular will actually be friends with you
5) people will treat you like you're actually IMPORTANT
6) you'll get all sorts of attention online too

Here are the ways to become popular:

1) be a really good furry artist or fursuit maker
2) have a really awesome fursuit
3) be lucky enough to make friends with someone uber popular and get in their "inner circle"
4) spend alot of money to commission stuff so all the artists know who you are
5) draw mediocre-to-good furry porn

Why none of this matters:

In reality, how many of us are actually "important" to the rest of the world? Society doesn't care about any of us individually. All we gotta do is be important to ourselves, and to the few people that are closest to us. Doesn't matter who you are. Doesn't matter who they are. But its gotta be mutual. That's the important thing. It can't be forced. If it has to be forced, then forget it. Find people that are compatible with you, and who the hell cares who they are. Then they'll do you the same favor.

Needa get back onto a better lifestyle...

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 17:52:01 GMT

Just because I'm working 80 hours a week doesn't mean I have to live unhealthy...

Its been a good many weeks since I had any real exercise... and I haven't been eating well either...

Used to be in much better shape.

So for my own mental, and physical well-being, I hearby swear to no longer eat anything that's fried. NOTHING AT ALL (except perhaps special occasions). And to try to commit to trying to go out for a jog at least half as much as I used to...

On my feasoxness do I swear this.

Fursuit video mix: the lost Jaggers!!!

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 19:22:26 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Epp576Dw074

Just a compilation of videos of myself that I didn't get a chance to put into my other ones.

Mostly from AC 2009, but also some from Furry Fiesta 2009.

Hehe looks like I accidently put one in there twice. Oooops! Oh well :P

Vids from:
Blitzwolf96
Marymouse
Wildbilltx
PsycoEwok
Maxxarcade

watches people suffer

Fri, 07 Aug 2009 01:15:20 GMT

I've noticed in the last couple of weeks there's been a common theme of what movies I've chosen to watch on DVD when I get home from work...

I've watched Schindler's List three times:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schindler%27s_List

Hotel Rwanda once:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hotel_Rwanda

Life is Beautiful twice:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Life_Is_Beautiful

and the first few minutes Grave of the Fireflies, but stopped cause I didn't wanna read all the words. Anyhow, saving this one for a worser day...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Grave_....._the_Fireflies

I tried watching Two Brothers... you know cause there's tigers in it. But then they looked all happy and carefree as cubs, and that made me jealous, so I switched to my second watching of Schindler's List instead:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Two_Brothers

There's something about watching other people suffer more than me that makes going to work the next day seem less depressing...

Granted, I did watch Ghostbusters last weekend. But that doesn't count cause it was on my only day off... so it was okay to be happy... :P

Ghostbusters FTW

A really bad day... but actually feeling optimistic....

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 01:47:11 GMT

Today I moved from one hospital service to another, officially completing my first month of internship. Only 11 more months of it to go! (perhaps more importantly, 4 more months of internal medicine, which I've quickly accepted to be an inevitable hell).

With all the adjusting to a new team, and new patients... today was really rough. Left at 6 AM, came back at 9 PM. That's pretty bad for a day when I'm not on call... (trust me, being on call is SO MUCH WORSE, but at least you see it coming...)

And yet I feel pleasantly not too pissed off. Maybe the satisfaction that at least today is over and tomorrow will be better...

1/12th done with this first year. I'm cautiously optimistic I'll at least survive the next 11. And very greatful I've had some great social support up here, so far away from home... Got some nice things to look forward to in the future...

The other thing is by the time I got home I'm already pretty much out of the Fursuit Fracas thingie:

http://community.livejournal.com/fu.....ney/60039.html

Too bad. But I'm pretty peaceful about that as well. I'm not surprised. I predicted I'd lose significantly this round. And if not to this dog, by the dog after that. Or the dog after that. Dang dogs... :P Though I gotta confess I personally like Jase's suit alot myself... :)

I'm still happy to have made it in the final bracket. I'm very thankful that a nobody like me managed to get SOME glory.... :)

So in summary, its been a bad day in the world of Jaggers. But I feel alright about it. Feeling optimistic... :)

Watch team yellow play!!! =) =)

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 21:01:15 GMT

I found a video that I like from our team (Team Yellow) doing the charades.

Fursuit games are fun. I don't get people that say otherwise :P

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YuU6AAVZIck

More purry team yellowness *rumblies happily*

http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2560101/

Thanks to axelwolf04 and Psycoewok for the goodness!

Lookit my icon!

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 01:35:17 GMT

LOOK!!! =) I drew it myself!

LOOSELY based on this:

http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2513060/

ball

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 22:59:19 GMT

http://community.livejournal.com/fursuittourney/58967.html

MEOWMER!!!

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 09:34:00 GMT

Four months of suckitude. Then Furfest!!!

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 09:59:12 GMT

So I'm headed into my fourth week of this residency thing... so far it actually hasn't been THAT BAD... that I got to even go to AC for 2 days was uber lucky...

Today starts what is probably the 4.5 most difficult months of the year. Medicine wards, overnight call every 4 days, and it'll be at least 10 weeks before I have another 2-day weekend (aka a "golden weekend"). Which unfortunately means that any hope of travelling anywhere to visit someone is shot until the next one...

I'll try my best to keep in touch with folks, which will be hard. So please don't think there's anything wrong if I don't talk to you as much as I usually do. I'm still here for you in spirit. :)

At least I'll keep posting whiny journals on FA without actually contributing anything artistic. Which I guess is something we're all used to seeing on FA... ;)

I do have another post-AC video and photo album to post. But that's probably all you'll see from me in awhiles.

Kinda reaching the inevitable point where work is having a negative effect on my day-to-day mood... which kinda sucks, but whatever, that's life.

At least I have MFF to look forward to. And I'll get to be there in its entirety... my reward for the next 4.5 months of suckitude... :)

Furry Cons Reviewed - 2009 Fursuiter's Edition

Thu, 09 Jul 2009 00:42:22 GMT

Thank you for a short but great Anthrocon...

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 07:39:38 GMT

Everyone is sleeping so guess now's a good time to type up some thoughts on AC... (my sleep schedule needs to flick back nocturnal tomorrow anyway!)

I'm not gonna get too detailed, but I'm really happy I got to go to AC this year. Fursuiting-wise, it all worked out and I managed to get to Pittsburgh just in time. Did the solo fursuit games (got 3rd, and a special badge trophie thingie whahoo!), then the parade, and then did the team games today (also 3rd place) and a lil bit of random frolicking at night :)

My favorite fursuiting comment I got: when Mintz thought I must've been drunk cause I was acting like an idiot. :P

The one really unfortunate thing about AC this year was that on the social side, I really simply did not have enough time. I don't think there was a single person that I felt like I had enough time to hang out with... and I don't just mean people I kinda-sorta know that I happened to run into in the halls, but also the staples... folks I've known a long time that I'm used to getting to hang out with alot more at cons... or going to dinner with...or at least having a long conversation with at some point... etc, etc... so much that I didn't get to do that I wanted...

I just want y'all to know that I didn't mean to blow anyone off, and if it seemed that way, it was more of a time crunch and fatigue issue... Wish I had coulda been here more days... :P

Anyhow, that worry aside, i really REALLY was glad to see so many folks I knew, and thank you so much for paying attention to me. Even if its just to stop me to say hello, how are you doing? Really does mean alot to me.

So next con I'll be at MFF. I'm gonna be there the whole time from opening to closing, and I'm really looking forward seeing some of you guys there!!! *hugs*

PS: please link me if you have any good photos or videos of me at AC! =)

Mary = attention whore
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2476202/

Jaggers and Leo Pawtucket
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2476745/

WARNING: Not so feasoxy at AC...

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 12:10:42 GMT

So this is just a warning for folks who'll see me at AC... cause I don't like giving people a bad impression... especially when I see some of y'all so rarely (and in some cases for the first time)...

These 11 hour night shifts really aren't that bad, and I don't have to work that hard.... but I've found myself becoming more and more progressively exhausted. Haven't slept well. Had really bad dreams last night (really REALLY bad)...

My plan is still to come straight out of work to drive to AC, and then immediately do the games (though seems unlikely I'll make it in time), and then the parade. Hard to imagine how that's gonna NOT gonna kill me. But I gotta try. I really like games... :P

So... whenever you do see me I'll be like, uber icky feeling, and probably even abit cranky. And I'll be slow at thinking... slow at listening... slow at talking... just, overall slow... and stupid... and just not all ther. Maybe the entire two days I'm there. So if that's the case, please don't take it the wrong way. I have to be happy enough I get to be there at all. :)

My first day...

Thu, 25 Jun 2009 17:39:11 GMT

So my first day was a long one... cause I was the lucky one to be the first on call. Just got home... so I was there pretty much exactly 31 hours straight. Hehe, went about 24 hours straight without eating or drinking. Managed to actually sleep an hour and a half last night though... :)

Must frustrating part is trying to learn the computer system here, which is REALLY frustrating.

I have to do this 30 hour call once every 4 days. Its gonna wear me down, but all in all it wasn't as bad as I imagined. I guess when you're busy time goes by fast... :P

At least I have the rest of the whole day off. I'm gonna eat 2000 calories in one sitting. Then either watch tv, or go to sleep! =) =)

Tomorrow's the uber big day...

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 01:31:44 GMT

Tomorrow's my first day as an official intern. My first day ever as as "doctor"...

I'll be on the cardiology unit this week. I'm also on overnight call tomorrow... meaning I'm there all night if anything bad happens to anyone on the floor. So if you're in the state of Ohio, try to not have any heart attacks for the next several days, okay?

*uber scared lil ball*

Why feasoxes can't have fancy shoes...

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 22:16:25 GMT

http://www.flickr.com/photos/36235194@N05/3651294135/sizes/o/

I have a terrible history with shoes. I'm very good at killing them, FAST... which is why I only buy cheaper shoes now...

That's also why when I got a particular pair of nice sneakers 10-12 years ago (over a decade ago!), I didn't wear them for the longest time cause I had plenty of uglier shoes to kill first (parents tend to give me lotsa shoes for Christmas).

The first time I wore them was also the last time I was VERY drunk, way back in college. Went to a party, where I proceeded to spill a glass of Sex on the Beach on them... Took forever to wash the stain out.

The second time was a couple years later, the first day of medical school. Should be safe right? Well, first few minutes just walking into the lobby I somehow managed to kick a column (hard) and get a big gash on the leather...

So... its been just about exactly another 4 years since then. I decided today screw it, I'm gonna actually use what they were designed for and go on a jog with em (my current pair had an unfortunate accident this weekend involving mud and water).

They were really confortable for jogging!

But sadly that didn't last long. About half a mile out the right one's sole decided to start coming off. I kept going, until the left one started doing the same thing...

Then they started disintigrating. And I mean COMPLETELY disintegrating. Like literally, pieces of the sole coming off, including the bubbles, flying this way and that way as I'm trying to run home. People everywhere so I'm sure there was alot of people thinking, WTF???!!!! Was kinda embarrassing. But I didn't wanna stop either...

By the time i made it back it looked like this:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/36235194@N05/3651294135/sizes/o/

So very sad... I wore them only 3 times and I killed them. That's like $35 a use. :P

So, morals of this lesson are:

A) Feasoxes can't have nice shoes
B) Don't wait 12 years to wear your sneakers. Apparently they crumble over time!

Still needa finish my jog, so I guess I'll go try another "new" pair of shoes. These are "only" 2-3 years old... never worn before...

Wish them luck! =)

MEOWMER!!! =)

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 11:14:22 GMT

Things are progressing pretty fast now...

Moved into my apartment a couple days ago. My parents have been helping me move and stuff. Have done most my shopping getting the place kinda-sorta furnished.

Overall I think I'm liking the area better than I first expected. My parents too. And there's a really good chinese restaurant just outside my place that my parents have given good reviews =)

Tomorrow morning they go back to Houston. In about ten minutes i go to my first official work related thing. I have to get Basic Life Support training, which is kinda stupid since I'm already certified for Advanced Life Support (apparently ACLS doesn't count towards BLS certification!)

Anyway, that's what I'm doing today, then finish off with some final shopping... then parents leave tomorrow morning and I have the day off. Go to a doctor's appt, hang out with Mary, Miguel and the Tanuki abit, and Wednesday is my first day of orientation.

I still don't have internet set up but seems like I can occasionally steal this very very week wireless connection from time to time... :)

Talk to some of y'all laters!!! =)

Imma in Columbus right now!!!

Fri, 12 Jun 2009 06:21:09 GMT

Gotted to Ohio safe and sound today! 12 hours straight driving today.

Tomorrow morning I finish the trip and move into my new apartment and get settled and stuff... =) =) =)

Meanwhile, while I'm doing that, why don't y'all all go vote for me in that silly tournament thingie?! =)

http://community.livejournal.com/fursuittourney/53841.html

Tomorrow's the semi-big day!!!

Wed, 10 Jun 2009 05:01:33 GMT

So... tomorrow's the big move...

Not too much to say about it, cept that I'm feeling all sorts of different emotions about what's happening in my life: excitement, fear, sadness, happyness, optimism, pessimism... all those things...

Spent the whole night before and today doing all my last minute packing. Pretty much have everything loaded into the car. Leaving around noon tomorrow and getting there Friday morning. All in all about 21 hours worth of driving. Longest road trip I've ever taken at least... :P

The drive will be taking me through Texarkana, Little Rock, Memphis, Nashville, Louisville, Cincinatti, and Columbus. Some of these areas I'd love to stop and visit some of you folks, but unfortunately (and fortunately) my dad's coming up with me... so that ain't gonna happen. :/

Then the weekend will be all about moving into my new place and getting settled. Orientation starts the next week and my first real day of work is the week after that... Hopefully between now and the 24th, I'll still be able to squeeze in some fun-time... :)

Wish me luck!!!

In the meantime, entertain yourself with looking at these murry purry things!!! (sadly I promised Mary not to abuse my birthday pic anymore... so these will be the happy replacements) =)

http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2307855/

http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2367737/

Fun weekend of farewell rounds. Plus a murry pic + video!!!

Mon, 08 Jun 2009 09:21:20 GMT

http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2367737/
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2367737/
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2367737/
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2367737/
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2367737/

This weekend was probably as good as a send-off that Texas coulda given me...

For me it felt alot like the "farewell rounds" I often like to do on the last night of a furry con, where I find folks I know and met and say the good ol' "thanks for hanging out with me... I wish we had more time... I'm looking forward to seeing you at the next one"... and then I hug them, and ultimately feel kinda sad I didn't spend as much time with them as I could have while I had the chance...

Well... so Friday night after my last family dinner in China town and visiting my middle sister and her brand new baby for a lil bit, I made my way to a local bar in Houston and had some drinks with   jesper-f,   clsazekiel,   ipequey, and Pacer Fox (a furry without an FA account?!).

Had a very good time, and ended up crashing at Jesper's place (not cause I was drunk, but bacause it was too late). This is a guy that I only met locally a few weeks ago despite us being in the same city all this time. Makes me wonder what other cool furries there are here I never got a chance to meet. Maybe when I come back in several years... :)

For some reason I had really wierd dreams and only slept a couple hours, but still got up early the next morning and made the boring 4 hour drive to Fort Worth (made less painful cause   marymouse and   johnnytanuki were kind enough to entertain me on the phone).

Anyway,   mongoose_ink had been so cool to invite me to come for Bowling For Soup's 15th anniversary concert that night, which, to be quite frank, was absolutely awesome. They're one of my favorite bands, and they were having it in this small club where we essentially got to stand right in front of em. My ears are still ringing 24 hours later! As I hoped, they played Ohio (Come Back to Texas), JUST FOR ME!!! =) =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qaW7pNgOrNU

We all got a our paws on some of their guitar picks at the end, and I even had one of their sweaty towels fly at my face (I dodged the hell away, but Mitch decided to take keep it for whatever reason). I was dead tired, starved, and dehydrated by the time we left, but it was worth it. :)

Not only the concert, but it was just great to get to hang out with him,   balto,   khyle, and   dook outside of a convention setting. I'm SOOOOO freakin' jealous of all the awesome stuff they have in their house. Their new cat Margot is adorable. So is Charlie the german shepherd. =)

Other than the concert, we pretty much just chilled out and relaxed (I finally understand those Guy Fawkes masks!)... played some video games...

Mitch even made me one of the most epic drawings EVER!!! Like seriously!

http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2367737/

Look! Did you look yet? =) =)

Its me as Bowling For Soup's lead singer, Jaret Reddick. A photo of him from the concert:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/362351.....56711/sizes/o/

I love how accurate the details are. And the hair!!! =) =) =)

Anyhow, made my way back to Houston Sunday night, and stopped at my oldest sister's place where we watched the end of the Lakers/Orlando game (damn Lakers) and played some Street Fighter 4. Was a quick reminder of how I suck at fighting games. We couldn't even beat it on "Easiest" mode!

By the time I left I was hungry and thought it'd be fitting to stop at a Whataburger, but then I came across a Taco Cabana. I'd only been to Taco Cabana twice in the past decade (both times when Mary came down for Furry Fiesta). Got the "Super Tex Mex" meal. Despite how much Mary talks about it, I'd never appreciated how good and CHEAP it was. So I apologize, Mary, you were right. Maybe its something I'll miss after all. :)

And now I'm back home. I've got two days to pack before I leave for Ohio, probably not anymore time for the sentimental stuff...

See some of you when I get up there. And for the rest of you, I'll be looking forward to hanging out with you a the next con!!! =) =) =)