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| I really want a room in the main hotel at MFF, but only have one in the backup. Do you know anyone that's willing to trade their room for the room I have in the back-up hotel? There's shuttle service between the hotels, and you can drive too. I just want to avoid it cause we got a buncha fursuiters and an artist with a buncha art supplies in our room, and it would make a big difference to us....
I'll paypal you $50 just to trade... You'd be doing me a huge favor, AND profiting from it! :) | comments: Leave a comment   |
| Firstly, a completely unrelated topic. I've noticed that I've gotten like 12 new watchers in the past week. Not very much for an artist's standards, but very atypical for me to get watchers when I haven't posted something or just been to a con. Just wondering if there's any method to this madness. Someone link me up from somewhere or what?
Anyhow, I wanna thank you all who payed attention to me last night in my time of need... I wasn't able to respond you comments, but I read them all at some point, and it made me feel less alone.
What made last night so bad was the day had gone so well. I had all my work done by 4 PM, and was basically just watching out for the 30 people on our team, as well as our sister team's. I was planning to sleep a little. Maybe even have a decent Sunday. Instead, overnight three patients, two of them my own, decided to crash, all AT THE SAME TIME. That all made for a hell of a stressful night, a couple times I wanted to cry. Ultimately 2 of them had to go to the ICU, and one of them, thankfully, stabilized.
ICU transfers are terrible cause not only is it a ton of work, but you end up wondering if you did something wrong, if you somehow failed them and their family... and that's not a fun feeling.
Fortunately, in retrospect, I think I managed alright. Everyone told me that I did the right thing for all of them. Its just crazy how fragile these cancer patients can be. They come in with something as simple as what looks like the flu, and you throw on hard-core antibiotics just to be safe. And yet they decide to get pneumonia anyway. And you throw on all the antibiotics known to man, and they just keep getting worse and worse, and there's nothing you can do but eventually stick a tube down their throat, or send them to hospice. I've literally had 4 patients in the past week like that. Its probably cause they're so immune compromised. But damn, its insane.
Anyway. This was the end of what I expect to be the worst month I'll have this year. It was horrible, but I guess I learned that I can handle the worst...
Tomorrow I start a month of general medicine. This could possibly be my 2nd worst of the year. But there's no way it can be has bad as the oncology service! So I'm feeling reasonably optimistic.
Then there's light at end of tunnel. My next day off isn't til Halloween, but 4 weeks from now I'm done with internal medicine FOREVER, and I have 2 weeks vacation and I get to go to MFF, and go back home to Texas for a week!
The rest of the year still has hells in store for me, like ICU and surgery. But I expect to suffer less with those. December and January will be relatively easy months. And April I have another two weeks off to go to FCN!
I know its SO FURRY of me that the things I look forward to the most is furry cons... but hey, its the one thing I got that lets me get truely lets me get away from it all :)
Alrighty, back to the grind tomorrow. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Something I've been pondering about on and off is this idea of fursuit "acting"...
like... I dunno... this whole idea of effectively BEING the character that you happen to be wearing... adopting their personality and all that, even when its so different from what you are like in human form.
I have alot of respect for fursuiters who are actually really good at that. Cause honestly, I don't think I'd be very good.
Jaggers is supposed to BE me already, with the same personality as me. Just more carefree from real world stresses I guess. (what I WISH I could be on a regular basis)
So when I go out in suit I pretty much just act like how I feel like acting... cept with the knowledge that I can pretty much get away with anything. So I kinda just go out there, try to enjoy myself, and try to get people to pay attention to me. I rather enjoy being paid attentioned to... and then later finding photos and videos of myself :)
And when I do things like play the fursuit games, I just go out there and play. Play with the intention to have fun, and with the intention to WIN.
But still, I'm just doing my thing I guess. Me being me. Not much thought to it. I dunno if I could really do the acting thing...
I wonder how different it feels for the people that go out and actively "act"... is it something I should try to do? Maybe I should try to get a non-Jaggers fursuit and see how I'd do... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| If you haven't figgured it out already, it is ESSENTIAL to be "POPUFUR" in the furry fandom in order to be happy.
Here are some reasons why you need to be popular:
1) people will know who you are, even though you have no idea who they are
2) you will get lots of fanart of yourself
3) non-popular people will obsess about trying to be friends with you
4) people who actually are popular will actually be friends with you
5) people will treat you like you're actually IMPORTANT
6) you'll get all sorts of attention online too
Here are the ways to become popular:
1) be a really good furry artist or fursuit maker
2) have a really awesome fursuit
3) be lucky enough to make friends with someone uber popular and get in their "inner circle"
4) spend alot of money to commission stuff so all the artists know who you are
5) draw mediocre-to-good furry porn
Why none of this matters:
In reality, how many of us are actually "important" to the rest of the world? Society doesn't care about any of us individually. All we gotta do is be important to ourselves, and to the few people that are closest to us. Doesn't matter who you are. Doesn't matter who they are. But its gotta be mutual. That's the important thing. It can't be forced. If it has to be forced, then forget it. Find people that are compatible with you, and who the hell cares who they are. Then they'll do you the same favor. | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| Just because I'm working 80 hours a week doesn't mean I have to live unhealthy...
Its been a good many weeks since I had any real exercise... and I haven't been eating well either...
Used to be in much better shape.
So for my own mental, and physical well-being, I hearby swear to no longer eat anything that's fried. NOTHING AT ALL (except perhaps special occasions). And to try to commit to trying to go out for a jog at least half as much as I used to...
On my feasoxness do I swear this. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Epp576Dw074
Just a compilation of videos of myself that I didn't get a chance to put into my other ones.
Mostly from AC 2009, but also some from Furry Fiesta 2009.
Hehe looks like I accidently put one in there twice. Oooops! Oh well :P
Vids from:
Blitzwolf96
Marymouse
Wildbilltx
PsycoEwok
Maxxarcade | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Today I moved from one hospital service to another, officially completing my first month of internship. Only 11 more months of it to go! (perhaps more importantly, 4 more months of internal medicine, which I've quickly accepted to be an inevitable hell).
With all the adjusting to a new team, and new patients... today was really rough. Left at 6 AM, came back at 9 PM. That's pretty bad for a day when I'm not on call... (trust me, being on call is SO MUCH WORSE, but at least you see it coming...)
And yet I feel pleasantly not too pissed off. Maybe the satisfaction that at least today is over and tomorrow will be better...
1/12th done with this first year. I'm cautiously optimistic I'll at least survive the next 11. And very greatful I've had some great social support up here, so far away from home... Got some nice things to look forward to in the future...
The other thing is by the time I got home I'm already pretty much out of the Fursuit Fracas thingie:
http://community.livejournal.com/fu.....ney/60039.html
Too bad. But I'm pretty peaceful about that as well. I'm not surprised. I predicted I'd lose significantly this round. And if not to this dog, by the dog after that. Or the dog after that. Dang dogs... :P Though I gotta confess I personally like Jase's suit alot myself... :)
I'm still happy to have made it in the final bracket. I'm very thankful that a nobody like me managed to get SOME glory.... :)
So in summary, its been a bad day in the world of Jaggers. But I feel alright about it. Feeling optimistic... :) | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| So I'm headed into my fourth week of this residency thing... so far it actually hasn't been THAT BAD... that I got to even go to AC for 2 days was uber lucky...
Today starts what is probably the 4.5 most difficult months of the year. Medicine wards, overnight call every 4 days, and it'll be at least 10 weeks before I have another 2-day weekend (aka a "golden weekend"). Which unfortunately means that any hope of travelling anywhere to visit someone is shot until the next one...
I'll try my best to keep in touch with folks, which will be hard. So please don't think there's anything wrong if I don't talk to you as much as I usually do. I'm still here for you in spirit. :)
At least I'll keep posting whiny journals on FA without actually contributing anything artistic. Which I guess is something we're all used to seeing on FA... ;)
I do have another post-AC video and photo album to post. But that's probably all you'll see from me in awhiles.
Kinda reaching the inevitable point where work is having a negative effect on my day-to-day mood... which kinda sucks, but whatever, that's life.
At least I have MFF to look forward to. And I'll get to be there in its entirety... my reward for the next 4.5 months of suckitude... :) | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| Everyone is sleeping so guess now's a good time to type up some thoughts on AC... (my sleep schedule needs to flick back nocturnal tomorrow anyway!)
I'm not gonna get too detailed, but I'm really happy I got to go to AC this year. Fursuiting-wise, it all worked out and I managed to get to Pittsburgh just in time. Did the solo fursuit games (got 3rd, and a special badge trophie thingie whahoo!), then the parade, and then did the team games today (also 3rd place) and a lil bit of random frolicking at night :)
My favorite fursuiting comment I got: when Mintz thought I must've been drunk cause I was acting like an idiot. :P
The one really unfortunate thing about AC this year was that on the social side, I really simply did not have enough time. I don't think there was a single person that I felt like I had enough time to hang out with... and I don't just mean people I kinda-sorta know that I happened to run into in the halls, but also the staples... folks I've known a long time that I'm used to getting to hang out with alot more at cons... or going to dinner with...or at least having a long conversation with at some point... etc, etc... so much that I didn't get to do that I wanted...
I just want y'all to know that I didn't mean to blow anyone off, and if it seemed that way, it was more of a time crunch and fatigue issue... Wish I had coulda been here more days... :P
Anyhow, that worry aside, i really REALLY was glad to see so many folks I knew, and thank you so much for paying attention to me. Even if its just to stop me to say hello, how are you doing? Really does mean alot to me.
So next con I'll be at MFF. I'm gonna be there the whole time from opening to closing, and I'm really looking forward seeing some of you guys there!!! *hugs*
PS: please link me if you have any good photos or videos of me at AC! =)
Mary = attention whore
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2476202/
Jaggers and Leo Pawtucket
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2476745/ | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| So this is just a warning for folks who'll see me at AC... cause I don't like giving people a bad impression... especially when I see some of y'all so rarely (and in some cases for the first time)...
These 11 hour night shifts really aren't that bad, and I don't have to work that hard.... but I've found myself becoming more and more progressively exhausted. Haven't slept well. Had really bad dreams last night (really REALLY bad)...
My plan is still to come straight out of work to drive to AC, and then immediately do the games (though seems unlikely I'll make it in time), and then the parade. Hard to imagine how that's gonna NOT gonna kill me. But I gotta try. I really like games... :P
So... whenever you do see me I'll be like, uber icky feeling, and probably even abit cranky. And I'll be slow at thinking... slow at listening... slow at talking... just, overall slow... and stupid... and just not all ther. Maybe the entire two days I'm there. So if that's the case, please don't take it the wrong way. I have to be happy enough I get to be there at all. :) | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| So my first day was a long one... cause I was the lucky one to be the first on call. Just got home... so I was there pretty much exactly 31 hours straight. Hehe, went about 24 hours straight without eating or drinking. Managed to actually sleep an hour and a half last night though... :)
Must frustrating part is trying to learn the computer system here, which is REALLY frustrating.
I have to do this 30 hour call once every 4 days. Its gonna wear me down, but all in all it wasn't as bad as I imagined. I guess when you're busy time goes by fast... :P
At least I have the rest of the whole day off. I'm gonna eat 2000 calories in one sitting. Then either watch tv, or go to sleep! =) =) | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Tomorrow's my first day as an official intern. My first day ever as as "doctor"...
I'll be on the cardiology unit this week. I'm also on overnight call tomorrow... meaning I'm there all night if anything bad happens to anyone on the floor. So if you're in the state of Ohio, try to not have any heart attacks for the next several days, okay?
*uber scared lil ball* | | comments: 12 comments or Leave a comment |
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